Sometimes, when working with families who are grieving, I see people struggling for a way to hold on to their loved ones–to grab hold of their memories. Especially with children who may be experiencing their first death. In some cases, I turn to beads with the idea being something like a rosary. As they touch each bead–usually symbolizing something particular in their heart–they can remember something beautiful about their loved one.
It got me wondering…if I were to bead some of my memories of people who have passed away, what would it look like?
A cupcake for my Nana–she was the first person with whom I baked. Lemon cupcakes. I can still taste them and feel a surge of pride at my first home baked creation. A recliner chair for my Papa–though he died when I was six, I can still remember the absolute knowledge I was loved as he held me in his arms while sitting in that chair. I can still smell the pipe smoke on his shirt. A sun for the way my Uncle Dennis’s smile could light up a room. A pen for my cousin Elizabeth–she became one of my early pen pals and made me excited to write back. A winking eye for the times my other Papa and I would wink at each other as we said in turn, “Hiya handsome!”… “Hiya gorgeous!”. And then of course, there are my precious patients…
A smiley face in memory of the first time a smile broke through a face–so often frozen by her form of dementia–for me. A heart for a patient telling me to use my heart and for reminding me, “in the end, it’s only love that matters”. An angel for the one who gave me my first glimpse of heaven when she described the angels in the room. Hand’s clasped in prayer for the one who always ended our visits saying, “let’s pray, mija”. A milkshake for the many chocolate and strawberry shakes shared. An exclamation point for a wonderful person who–being able to see beauty in even the hardest moments–would always exclaim, “oh wow!”….
It is inspiring to me the way memories take shape…I simply don’t have enough beads for them all. But if I did, I believe they would make the most beautiful strand of beads. And you…if you could strand your memories of those who have died, what beads would you use?
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